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Diabetic Journal # 3
My third Diabetic Journal Rant
Friday June, 16, 2006
Well it’s been since September 1, 2005 since my last diabetic journal
entry. I have had diabetes for over a year.
I still haven’t gotten my sugar levels under control. I have been on
and off the medicine, mainly because of the expense. Last time I went
to the Dr. was in April and I am due back in July. April they raised
my meds and told me to tighten up my diet.
My main problem is that I am still in a major denial over the whole
disease. I have joined several support groups and it seems that it
happens to a lot of people in the first few years. I have also
noticed that I have been feeling a bit of the depression that people
also get. The Dr. put me on a med for this. The medicine though makes
me want to sleep forever. I end up not being depressed but not having
a life.
It stems from not being able to eat what you want. I also have to
deal with people at work that either don’t understand or just don’t
care that they are shoving sugar under my nose. I know its not there
fault that my willpower sucks. At home it’s much better because my
girlfriend understands and supports me tremendously. It’s also great
that she can cook, (she was a chef for a country club when I met
her), so she can cook me tasteful healthy meals.
I know that my stress level doesn’t help any. I have been so worried
about money. It seems I can either by healthy groceries and eat
healthy or I can buy my meds and eat high carbohydrate meals. Neither
option appeals to me.
I am reading a book, better late then never, about the first year of
diabetes type 2. It seems to be helping a bit. I joined
www.onetouchgold.com to get a healthy meal list and exercise routine.
I am doing pretty well with the meals. The exercise will be a slow
go.
I still haven’t decided whether or not to do the gastric by pass. I
know my family is behind me to do so. I just have mixed feelings
about it myself. I have people that say it’s great and others that
say it’s not worth the risk. So, I just can’t decide.
I will let you all know what the Dr. says in July. Keep me in your
thoughts and hopefully I can keep up with this Diet and exercise.
Talk to you soon.
November 18th, 2004 at 3:07 pm
Zandrielle
There is more than one type of anti-depressant. Tell
your doctor that you are too tired and experiment with
the meds. When I was on antidepressants I had to try
several. I don’t need them now, but I did then.
Consider adding in cognitive restructuring therapy ala
Burn’s "Feel Good" book or adding a course of NLP or
EFT to help with the depression - depending if you
have an NLP practitioner in your area. You can teach
yourself the basics of eft from the free manual at
emofree.com
If you can’t afford the meds please consider talking
to your doctor about helping you get free meds. I
can’t remember what the link is to the site about it -
I think Annie gave it to me when I was researching the
issue for a client but maybe that would help with
consistency of treatment.
I’ve become an advocate for myself. I practically
wear an "I’m a diabetic, don’t mess with me" button.
(grin) People have learned that I don’t eat a lot of
things they do and it is okay to let me eat what I
eat. I want to live - I’m proactive. Last year my
friend
If you get surgery you are not going to be able to eat
a bunch of sugary junk either. Ultimately, you can
out-eat a surgery. I’ve seen it done.
You are right, stress does not help. I wish I could
fix the rotten alternatives you have, but I can’t. I
only know that having slashed my eating to only what I
need to eat to survive instead of living to eat has
radically slashed my food budget. Vegetables and
other low-carb items really are not that expensive and
I don’t eat huge amounts of meat. In fact, I can’t
tolerate much red meat now. I wish you luck figuring
out your budget issues!!
You found Gretchen’s first year of diabetes book? Is
that the one you are reading? It is a good book.
I can’t advise you regarding surgery. I only know
that I decided I could make the decision to eat as
little as if I had had a gastric bypass without the
pain, expense, and danger of the procedure. That’s
just me. Our situations may not be the same - and I
am exceptionally stubborn l’il cuss when I decide to
be - and regarding diabetes I am a very determined
little cuss indeed.
Be well and good fortune to you - no matter what