There is more than one type of anti-depressant. Tell
your doctor that you are too tired and experiment with
the meds. When I was on antidepressants I had to try
several. I don’t need them now, but I did then.

Consider adding in cognitive restructuring therapy ala
Burn’s "Feel Good" book or adding a course of NLP or
EFT to help with the depression - depending if you
have an NLP practitioner in your area. You can teach
yourself the basics of eft from the free manual at
emofree.com

If you can’t afford the meds please consider talking

to your doctor about helping you get free meds. I
can’t remember what the link is to the site about it -
I think Annie gave it to me when I was researching the
issue for a client but maybe that would help with
consistency of treatment.

I’ve become an advocate for myself. I practically
wear an "I’m a diabetic, don’t mess with me" button.
(grin) People have learned that I don’t eat a lot of
things they do and it is okay to let me eat what I
eat. I want to live - I’m proactive. Last year my
friend

If you get surgery you are not going to be able to eat
a bunch of sugary junk either. Ultimately, you can
out-eat a surgery. I’ve seen it done.

You are right, stress does not help. I wish I could
fix the rotten alternatives you have, but I can’t. I
only know that having slashed my eating to only what I
need to eat to survive instead of living to eat has
radically slashed my food budget. Vegetables and
other low-carb items really are not that expensive and
I don’t eat huge amounts of meat. In fact, I can’t
tolerate much red meat now. I wish you luck figuring
out your budget issues!!

You found Gretchen’s first year of diabetes book? Is
that the one you are reading? It is a good book.

I can’t advise you regarding surgery. I only know
that I decided I could make the decision to eat as
little as if I had had a gastric bypass without the
pain, expense, and danger of the procedure. That’s
just me. Our situations may not be the same - and I
am exceptionally stubborn l’il cuss when I decide to
be - and regarding diabetes I am a very determined
little cuss indeed.

Be well and good fortune to you - no matter what